When did I get fat?
Even though I have slackened off the gym and food, I didn't totally realise I'd gotten fat. I'd put on a few pounds, I wasn't where I wanted to be.... But fat...?
I noticed it walking at work a few days ago... My tummy and my love handle area otherwise known as the 'muffin top' was bouncing.... Bouncing!!!
I noticed my bras don't fit and that my tops were creasing across my chest where they were being stretched to the limit, I don't (anymore) think it's because they have just been washed and were cheap buys...
Trousers I bought in early summer are clinging to my thighs not skimming them.
& my face.. What's happened to my face? I was even told I was unrecognisable to my wedding pics the other day!
This change has happened gradually over a few years... 5 lbs a year isn't much right... But it adds up eventually and there is a point where you notice and then you can't go back.
What happened to my good habits? My clean eating? Hydrating? My fitness? I didn't realise I had travelled so far down this path!!
So what do I do? Make zero change and add another 4lbs a season? Or do I sort out my head, understand it will be hard and deal with it??
My heart & my head & the inner 'fit' me says 'suck it up and deal with it....
But the part of me 'fat me' is happy drinking this glass of red wine wishing for chocolate!!
