27th November 95 data to the Arnold

Daily journal... 27th November - 95 days till the Arnold.... Turned to sleep at around 9pm... Eddie threw up, so had to get up and clean up, back to bed around 9.30... Okay nights sleep - don't remember waking during the night....
Alarm went off at 4am... I snoozed it and debated about getting up... I felt shattered so decided to skip gym and go back to sleep. Eddie wouldn't settle so I got up and decided to go to gym, by the time I had let Eddie out and boiled kettle i had decided to go back to bed... Slept on and off until 5:40ish, Eddie really wasn't happy to be back in bed so was up and down pattering around the room... Fianlly got up and had a coffee, then it was a mad rush to get ready for work... Arrived at work frustrated again.... left house in a rush, feel unorganised, dogs haven't been walked etc, etc This is one of the things that I am mega pee'd off at myself for... I am making life hard and it really doesn't have to be! Basically, I didn't sleep much after 4am anyay... if I had got up and headed into the gym I would have felt much better and been a better doggy mommy! Food: Hot Lava Java Coffee....Ting! Coffee Oat so Simple pot Apple Coffee 2 x Oatcakes Veggie Soup Steak Crisps Cake & Coffee...why? Just because it was there... I can't even think of an excuse... I wasn't hungry, my sweet tooth was just shouting!! Crunchie .. I was at least hungry!!! Coming down from the sugar... feel really crappy, headachy, even a bit like I am coming down with cold... this isn't worth the feeling. It really isn't!! God I am peeved at myself... why would i choose to make myself feel like this?
I am not at work tomorrow - day off and I am worried how I am going to deal with it when I so need to start making the right choices and eating reasonably. Changing the way I eat is worth it if I feel better than I do today. It is also completely possible as i have proved time and time again!!!
The rest of the day went in the same way ... Hey once you've one flat tyre may as well slash the other 3!!!

Mind Matters..

Mind Matters I learn this lesson over and over when it comes to my fitness, my nutrition, my attitude.... my mind holds the greatest power over everything else that then follows...

Tuesday 27th Nov.... Only 28 days till Christmas, 35 days till 2013 and interestingly around 95 days until the Arnold Classic.

Does the Arnold Classic matter to me.... well I won't be attending or competing or anything like that, but I don't have any holidays planned next year, no major plans to be in a bikini anytime soon, so when I saw Nicole Wilkins Lee comment on facebook that yesterday was the day that she usually starts her Arnold Classic prep I thought it was a good date for me to look to also...I have dreams of being a figure athlete and competing so why not use this as a countdown.

Lets face it that is just over 3 months... perfect for forming new habits, 3 months for my body to totally regenerate every living cell... And looking back at the past year - 3 months will be gone in no time!!!

But making this new goal is all well and good... great so by the time the Arnold classic is here I want to be body perfect, now I can say that as much as I want... making it happen is another thing it seems...

I have the tools in place - Iphone with workout log apps, with food log apps, with app's for blogging. I have the knowledge - god I have been reading up on this stuff for 10 years now, I have a large library of read and re-read Oxygen's, Muscle & Fitness & Fitness RX mags as well as every clean eating book, Jillian Michaels book and Jackie Warner literature I could afford to buy. I have a gym including a treadmill, a spin bike, free weights and a dual cable machine. I have a daily routine that would make this fitness lifestyle work... it's actually sticking to it that is the problem!

So I think journalling has been a tool that I haven't been using very well recently. I do feel that it is something I need to do... Writing regularly, keeps me focussed and helps me to analyse why I do something and to keep it all in balance. It gives me something to review.

Gotta take pics/ gotta do measurements... reality sucks and I am managing to ignore it at the moment....
So I hereby promise to journal at least 3 x per week...

I want this to work and I need to invest the time for planning and tracking.