Firstly, for an update on my food and fitness just read any past posts. I am still not moving forwards in this area.
My Skye-baby was put to sleep on 16/11/14. She had kidney failure and her hind legs had massive muscle wastage. It hit me harder than I expected.
In the same week I had an interview to get into working for my Hubby's parent company which is ultimately where I wanna be. I was offered 25% less than my current wage which I have taken personally and I am offended by the fact that they couldn't see the worth of my skills and experience.
So the death of a pet and the death of a big dream in the same week is taking some adjustment and I think I am probably still grieving for both. I am shattered and to be honest am only functioning on a 'must do' level at the moment, unable to be proactive, focused or even remember things.
Just getting through the day to a glass of wine and a cosy bed. Then getting up is the hardest, since being a small child I have tried to sleep my troubles away and I still want to do that... Give up, stay safe in bed they can't get you!!
I know I have to pull myself together, but each day that I don't is another failure so knocks me back again. I'm not sure how to push passed this or when I will bet through it right now...
