Tosca says - eat clean no calorie counting.
Jillian says - eat clean and calorie count
Bob says - eat clean and calorie count
Jamie Eason says = Eat clean, cal count and macros
Tuff chick did it by - Eat clean no calorie counting
Monica Brant - eat clean no cal counting
Body for Life - eat clean, no calorie

This is just a small bite of research that I have done because I am cross with myself. I can't seem to commit to a path or route to get to where I want to be. I am so used to going down the calorie counting route that I am frightened to move away from it. What if i stop and then never lose weight because I am not tracking what goes into my body? Not counting calories has made me lazy for tracking my food and then i think that I can be slack over what I am eating. Reducing my workout time has made me less focused and more likely to not nourish my body.

By not committing to a plan I am giving myself the opportunity to blunder around doing what i want in each moment and not focusing on the consequences. Take last night, we ate at a Thai restaurant.... It was an all you can eat buffet. There I was making choices and not really thinking about the consequences... oh I knew when I put the fried banana pieces in syrup on my plate that they weren' t a good choice but I wanted them anyway....that;s alright you say, a cheat once in a while is ok and I would agree if that was the only bad food choice I had made, but the bad food choices are more consistent than the good food choices.... Oh it is christmas you say....again if this was just something that was happening now fine, but it's been happening for months and it will go so way to explaining the additional 10lbs that I have gained recently!!!

I have told myself for weeks now that I need to work on some goals that are not scale related so that I have a focus, then the next time a fried banana chunk is tempting me I know why I am saying no....I can't seem to find the time to do this soul searching!
Why?
Is it because once I have made these goals I will have committed myself and i will have to do something to follow through...right now with no goals I can do what I want each day. Do I have a fear of commitment?
Is it because past experience seems to dictate that it is pointless because I never reach the goal in the end?
Is it just because I am lazy and can't be bothered doing the work?

Right now I kind of feel like I am fed up being the way I am, but can't be bothered to do anything about it...and whats the point especially with Xmas round the corner??