January..You will be tough, but I will be tougher!!

So because Jan started on a Tuesday and it was tough getting back into work after the Christmas break I decided to start all of my fitness goals on Sat 5th.

I let myself down..

Sat Summary:
Meal 1, Protein Latte
*Back & Biceps workout*
Meal 2, EW, Oats, banana, Nut butter, Coffee
Meal 3, 4 x Turkey Bacon Rashers, 1 dry fried egg in 2 slices bread
*Golf*
Meal 4, Snickers & Lucozade Energy (durning golf)
Meal 5, Slice of Xmas Panetone and coffee, then some chocolates and coffee
Meal 6, Lamb Tikka Masala, poppadums, pickles
3 bottles Coors

Sun Summary:
Meal 1, Cott Cheese, Blueberries, Oatcakes, Coffee
*Dog Walk*
Meal 2, Egg W Omlette, veggies & Chorizo and slice toast, 1 x slice Xmas Panetone
Meal 3, Coffee & Panetone, stollen & chocolates
Crisps & chocolates 2 x glasses of wine

Where did I go wrong?
Sat:
Back & Biceps workout.... I didn't feel right. I didn't feel inspiring, I felt like I wasn't doing the right thing. I took my weights a bit lighter because of the few months off....
Meal 2 - I was making DH the unhealthy version of this so I tried to make it a bit better...we ended up needing something quick to prepare - I was going to have EW Omelette, but no time
On the Golfcourse - I hadn't prep'd any healthy snacks so ended up buying what I could at the golfclub.
Starving when we got home (due to lack of healthy snacks!) ended up binging on sweet stuff
Sun:
I did intend to hit the gym, but didn't do it as soon as I got up... this was my first mistake as life always gets in the way later in the day!
Meal 2 - I shouldn't have given in to the Panetone...
Meal 3 - Really... what was I thinking?? Oh well all Panetone is now gone!!
While watching films I just carried on the binge!

Needless to say I have struggled to get up this morning, I feel sluggish and fed up about it. I am immediatly hitting the pattern that I have been in for the last year-ish. I don't think ahead about the consequences or the benefits I just do what I do and think I will deal with it tomorrow, later whenever.

This is not a good pattern to be in, but I seem to be in it in lots of areas of life - a definite procrastination cycle... I need to get passed this and push through...

I don't want to be the person who weekends like this!