Phoenix Rising

Ok, so the title of this post basically means that I am starting again...

GOALS:
My goal has always been to hit around 135lbs, and I reckon I can get damn close by Xmas, another goal of mine has always been to have some All Saints jeans... now the waist size for these is 30 inches...so this is going to be what will be on my Xmas List.

There are other goals... I want to eat clean, be fit, be healthy, live a long active life, disease free...there are lots of them, but for the time being I am only going to focus on those jeans!!!

PLAN:
Now I don't really believe in deprivation diets, I think they just lead to the day where you decide you have reached your goals and you start eating again and guess what - you are back where you started, I am proof of that.... Having lost nearly 25lbs I have put it all back on when I have started to eat the things I had banned for so long... luckily I have stopped before I have gone over what I weighed at the beginning, but I feel rubbish about myself and don't want to come back here again.
Foodwise then, I plan to eat clean... to fill myself up on lean protein, veggies, complex carbs, healthy fats and drink my water.I don't want to count calories... I no longer believe all calories are created equally!!
Training - will be daily weights & cardio, I will start at 30mins of each until I am in the routine of my early mornings again, then I will increase the time as I move closer to Christmas. Currently the cardio will need to be steady state as I have let my fitness levels drop so low that I need to build this up again!

MINDSET:
My head is getting there, but I realise I have to get my head in gear to get my body moving, but I do over analyse things and I have made the decision that I need to take action and my mind will join in as I am remembering how good I feel when I am working out & eating right. At the end of the day do I really want to continue feeling the way I do? No, I wanna start feeling great again. I know I can do it, I have done it before, but this time I am going to do this in a healthy way, where I can eat good food in abundance.
The other important thing to think about is getting organised... If I'm not organised at home, with food prep and routines for bed etc then I am not going to do this... It is critical that I get a grip on life!!

TODAYS STATS:
Weight 16.4lbs, 31.6% Body Fat
Chest 103cm
Belly Button 93cm
Hips 109cm

I want to commit to this for 1 month, I will allow a cheat meal each week.

ALCOHOL:
I need to decide on my alcohol intake ... I think I will cave in if I just say none.. for the last 5 months I have had alcohol pretty much everyday, so I will not drink during the week, but I am going to allow myself some on the weekend... but I have some tricks up my sleeve:
Becks Blue.... 50cals per bottle of beer (0% alcohol) ... I don't drink to get drunk so the alcohol level doesn't bother me, it's the taste and the habit that I want....
Banrock Rose - 56 cals per 125ml glass... this is in the cupboard, but I haven't tried it yet.
Echo Falls Spritzer - this is 100 cals per can, this was the alcohol of choice for me during my last weight loss stint.

I will aim to post regularly, the absolute minimum will be once per week as this helps me keep my head in gear and my thoughts on the right track. I am not going to get down on myself. I can and I will do this!!!