So I have heard that doing a 're-do' helps you to understand how you could have made better choices and prepares you for the next time.
Today didn't go to plan and I guess that started last night with a late night...so probably not enough sleep. Re-do: I would have gone to bed closer to 9pm-ish and would have been full of beans during Saturday.
My alarm went off at 6am, intention was to have brekkie, journal and be ready in time for grocery delivery between 7-8am, but I didn't eat anything until Matt woke up at 7.30am. Matt didn't want to go to gym so I decided not to bother too.
Re-do: I would have eaten my oats & egg whites, journalled and planned for the day. I would have still gone to the gym and left Matt in bed.
After a couple of hours of web surfing, TV watching and a small brekkie of Cottage cheese, mango, oatcakes and a few coffees, we got up and were both starving, we were also running a bit late for being ready for golf. Brekkie was 3x rashers turkey bacon, Wm breadbun, fried egg, mushrooms. Played to an average of 7 per hole.
Re-do: Having already had oats for brekkie and having been to the gym I would have had a protein smoothie and would have been up and about doing stuff not lazing in bed. By now I would be preparing a healthy 'lunch' maybe turkey burgers or egg white omlette before heading to golf.
Arrived at golf with 5 mins to spare, no snacks so bought snickers each.
Re-do: I would have prep'd some Wraps after gym
Snickers didn't satisfy and I was starving by 6pm. I was craving a curry and was shattered, had a bath and then the last thing I want to do is cook...ordered Indian takeaway.
Re-do: I could have prep'd a curry before heading off to golf club ready for cooking when I got home.
Wine - drank plenty
Re-do: Could have drank Spritzers and thereby reduced my calorie intake or even gone for something like White Rum with frozen raspberries and sparkling water ... mmm sounds lovely!!!
I'm sure if I had done as I have re-done I would feel so much better than I do sat here feeling reasonably fat, lazy and tired!!!
Saturday, 7 April 2012
What did you do today to succeed?
You know getting off the 'junk' wagon and on the 'fitness' wagon is harder than it should be. It's like taking the step off the platform at the top of a Bungee (I imagine because I haven't ever done a Bungee) but I imagine the rewards are worth the initial braveness and confidence required...
For me getting on the right wagon isn't about braveness, but it is about confidence, confidence in my own abilities, in myself. I have tried this so many times and yet here I am back at (almost) my heaviest weight.. It isn't quite making me miserable yet because I am kinda burying my head in the sand by not trying to wear the clothes that I know won't fit... by not thinking about it too much.
Now what I can say is... 'I know I can lose the weight' I do know this, all I have to do is track my calories and eat the right amount, all I have to do is get back into the gym, once I get into a routine I love going so that's easy.
So why aren't I doing this? Because I am burying my head in the sand and through doing that I am not making myself want it enough.... if I always put on the size 14 pants to wear for work and never try the 12's and realise how tight they are then I will never push myself to get into the Size 12's. Same goes for not thinking about it... If i think about it, it makes me sad and cross that I got my weight to 146lbs and then I let myself balloon back up again, but if I push it out of my mind and get on with the other stuff it doesn't bother me.
Over the last few months I have tried to step away from my negative body image (who wants to be sad about themselves all the time) and I am very cautious at looking at what I don't like about myself because I don't want to end up in a negative pattern again, but unless I take a long hard critical look then I am just going to plod along in the same situation and probably put on more weight and be gutted when I realise I am wearing a Size 18!!!
As I said in a previous post ...I control this, I control what size clothes I wear, I control what I eat, I control what exercise I do, I control whether I am healthy or not and I control the scale.
Right now I wanna get out of the 160's....that is my goal. I don't want to do it in a few weeks, a few months, next year.... I want to do it this week, so that's it decision made ... by Friday I will see a 159 at least on that scale and it starts with making the right choices today!!!
For me getting on the right wagon isn't about braveness, but it is about confidence, confidence in my own abilities, in myself. I have tried this so many times and yet here I am back at (almost) my heaviest weight.. It isn't quite making me miserable yet because I am kinda burying my head in the sand by not trying to wear the clothes that I know won't fit... by not thinking about it too much.
Now what I can say is... 'I know I can lose the weight' I do know this, all I have to do is track my calories and eat the right amount, all I have to do is get back into the gym, once I get into a routine I love going so that's easy.
So why aren't I doing this? Because I am burying my head in the sand and through doing that I am not making myself want it enough.... if I always put on the size 14 pants to wear for work and never try the 12's and realise how tight they are then I will never push myself to get into the Size 12's. Same goes for not thinking about it... If i think about it, it makes me sad and cross that I got my weight to 146lbs and then I let myself balloon back up again, but if I push it out of my mind and get on with the other stuff it doesn't bother me.
Over the last few months I have tried to step away from my negative body image (who wants to be sad about themselves all the time) and I am very cautious at looking at what I don't like about myself because I don't want to end up in a negative pattern again, but unless I take a long hard critical look then I am just going to plod along in the same situation and probably put on more weight and be gutted when I realise I am wearing a Size 18!!!
As I said in a previous post ...I control this, I control what size clothes I wear, I control what I eat, I control what exercise I do, I control whether I am healthy or not and I control the scale.
Right now I wanna get out of the 160's....that is my goal. I don't want to do it in a few weeks, a few months, next year.... I want to do it this week, so that's it decision made ... by Friday I will see a 159 at least on that scale and it starts with making the right choices today!!!
Wednesday, 4 April 2012
Easter Restart
Where am I right now?
Physically, I am in the worst shape I have been in for a long time. I weigh in at 161lbs & 31% Body Fat. Chest 97.5cm, Belly Button 95cm, Hips 107cm. Now this isn't the biggest I have ever been (note to self -remember those piccys from Cuba) but it is getting up there again!! Considering my target has always been 135lbs... I am way off track!!!
Mentally, I have lost the fire and dedication for my fitness and for my figure competition aspirations. After so many false starts and not finishing, not getting where I want to I have lost the belief that I can do this and since I can't do it I might as well eat chocolate! Underneath all this I am unhappy with the way I look, but am refusing to think about it so I am just sticking my head in the sand I guess...and fooling myself!
Where do I want to be?
Physically, I have touched on this already... my ulitmate goal is 135lbs, but I have such a long way to go now. My first step is to get to 150lbs....this has me at a reasonable weight for my wardrobe and I generally fit most of my clothes. My calculations tell me I can be there by 21st May which is almost 7 weeks away. My Ultimate goal of 135lbs can be reached by 7th Aug.
Mentally, I want my fire and my dedication back. I want to feel good about myself and be rid of the nagging that I should be doing something about it and making myself happy. I want the energy and vitality that comes with the 'fitness lifestyle' I want the confidence and strength.
How do I get there?
Physically, I work out and I eat clean. I follow my plan and I remove the 'extras' the 'little treats' and reduce the wine (which has got quite bad recently!) I suck it up and count calories, eating clean is great but I can't seem to control it as good as when I actually count the pesky calories.
Mentally, I have got to keep my eye on what I want. Yes I have a lot going on in my life at the moment, but for gods sake does eating a biscuit make it any easier than if I didn't eat the biscuit? Whats the choice... move into new house 5 lbs heavier because I didn't sort my head out or move in 5lbs lighter and already doing a good job? Exactly!
I control the number on the scales - it does not control me!!!!
I need to remember with every good choice or good action I will get stronger, happier and more dedicated and inspired to keep going.... I just need to get through those first few days and then it will be easier!
Ok so plan, track, log and do!!!
Physically, I am in the worst shape I have been in for a long time. I weigh in at 161lbs & 31% Body Fat. Chest 97.5cm, Belly Button 95cm, Hips 107cm. Now this isn't the biggest I have ever been (note to self -remember those piccys from Cuba) but it is getting up there again!! Considering my target has always been 135lbs... I am way off track!!!
Mentally, I have lost the fire and dedication for my fitness and for my figure competition aspirations. After so many false starts and not finishing, not getting where I want to I have lost the belief that I can do this and since I can't do it I might as well eat chocolate! Underneath all this I am unhappy with the way I look, but am refusing to think about it so I am just sticking my head in the sand I guess...and fooling myself!
Where do I want to be?
Physically, I have touched on this already... my ulitmate goal is 135lbs, but I have such a long way to go now. My first step is to get to 150lbs....this has me at a reasonable weight for my wardrobe and I generally fit most of my clothes. My calculations tell me I can be there by 21st May which is almost 7 weeks away. My Ultimate goal of 135lbs can be reached by 7th Aug.
Mentally, I want my fire and my dedication back. I want to feel good about myself and be rid of the nagging that I should be doing something about it and making myself happy. I want the energy and vitality that comes with the 'fitness lifestyle' I want the confidence and strength.
How do I get there?
Physically, I work out and I eat clean. I follow my plan and I remove the 'extras' the 'little treats' and reduce the wine (which has got quite bad recently!) I suck it up and count calories, eating clean is great but I can't seem to control it as good as when I actually count the pesky calories.
Mentally, I have got to keep my eye on what I want. Yes I have a lot going on in my life at the moment, but for gods sake does eating a biscuit make it any easier than if I didn't eat the biscuit? Whats the choice... move into new house 5 lbs heavier because I didn't sort my head out or move in 5lbs lighter and already doing a good job? Exactly!
I control the number on the scales - it does not control me!!!!
I need to remember with every good choice or good action I will get stronger, happier and more dedicated and inspired to keep going.... I just need to get through those first few days and then it will be easier!
Ok so plan, track, log and do!!!
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