I have been thinking a lot...
What's wrong with me?
Why can't I do this?
Why can't I motivate myself?
Why can't u say no to junk food?
Why don't I have the dedication to not snooze my alarm?
Of course each of these questions is another negative thought about myself but I did have a brainwave over the weekend... It's not me, it's not that something is wrong with me, that I am not as strong as others...it is the paths that I have created and continued to instil in my head!
The first time I laid in the bath with a glass of wine a created a connection a neural pathway taking me from 'bath' & 'wine' to feeling good and relaxation, the 2nd time I did it I made that pathway a bit clearer, the third time I ground out that path a little more until after a good 100 times that path is pretty much gouged well and truly into my head.... Wanna relax & feel good... Oh yeah, drink wine in bath!!
This is why I don't even think about what I am doing I just take the path I know, this has happened over all sorts of things... The pathways used to link good stuff to good stuff but they have got a little skewed over the last year...
So I gotta start building those new pathways like:
'early start' & 'gym' means feeling great
'Iced green tea' & 'bath' means refreshed & re-energised.
Now I can stop thinking that I am just rubbish and start building some new pathways!!
You know, I have this same problem all the time. I think I just am a person who sees negative, instead of being the type of person who always sees the positive.. But I have found that the only way to stop that kind of thing, is to give myself something to be proud of.
ReplyDeleteYou have to watch yourself and let yourself struggle through temptation. Be diligent to not keep bad things around you, or things that will trigger temptation... Be mindful to find exactly what those triggers are! One of my biggest triggers is nuts of all things, if I have snacky nuts around, you can believe that I might start binging on anything.
Hang in there Gayle!! I'm right here behind you! Email or message me anytime you're struggling and are looking for some support!
Thanks Lacey, everything about the 'fitness' lifestyle is a struggle at the moment, I have just let too many bad habits take over! At least I am working through things... I will be a changed person in a month or so :-)
DeleteThanks for being there, you're support is invaluable and you are such an inspiration!