'I don't remember the last time I woke up feeling well. I always feel tired which I guess is normal, but there is always a slight feeling of headachy,sicky, just not right ... The usual low feelings hit me quite quickly if I don't hit the gym. Now I also don't remember the last time I headed for bed without a glass or two of wine whilst chilling out and I am pretty certain the two things are linked! I have researched and reduced the booze a few times only for a bad day at the office to send me reaching for the pink stuff again. So I am experimenting to see if not drinking makes a difference. This morning I woke tired and headachy...and no wine last night, am thinking my body needs to adjust although I don't 'feel' bad...
I am ready to end the negative cycle I am in (and have been in a while). It's gonna take hard work, it's gonna take thought, effort and dedication, but is there anyone out there who wants to live like this -really? Not taking control, not going anywhere? Like the plastic bag Katie Perry talks of in 'firework'. No I don't think anyone does, I think we all fall into the cycle of short term gratification and forget the long term and in the meantime we mess up our bodies and in some cases our lives by not taking responsibility and control. I want control again and I want to make everything right again. Gosh this all sounds a bit like I have had a major drama.. No not at all, but life is passing me by in a haze of wine, food and missed workouts :-)'
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