When did I get fat...?

This blog is a way of sorting my jumbled thoughts sometimes... Right now there is a tonne of them swirling round my head all asking the same question... 

When did I get fat?

Even though I have slackened off the gym and food, I didn't totally realise I'd gotten fat. I'd put on a few pounds, I wasn't where I wanted to be.... But fat...?

I noticed it walking at work a few days ago... My tummy and my love handle area otherwise known as the 'muffin top' was bouncing.... Bouncing!!!

I noticed my bras don't fit and that my tops were creasing across my chest where they were being stretched to the limit, I don't (anymore) think it's because they have just been washed and were cheap buys...

Trousers I bought in early summer are clinging to my thighs not skimming them.

& my face.. What's happened to my face? I was even told I was unrecognisable to my wedding pics the other day!

This change has happened gradually over a few years... 5 lbs a year isn't much right... But it adds up eventually and there is a point where you notice and then you can't go back.

What happened to my good habits? My clean eating? Hydrating? My fitness? I didn't realise I had travelled so far down this path!!

So what do I do? Make zero change and add another 4lbs a season? Or do I sort out my head, understand it will be hard and deal with it??

My heart & my head & the inner 'fit' me says 'suck it up and deal with it.... 

But the part of me 'fat me' is happy drinking this glass of red wine wishing for chocolate!!

Poorly, sick, feeling sorry for myself

Illness always feels like the universe trying to tell me something. Like it's time to stop take stock and see why your body has thrown this curveball at you.

Did I do anything to protect against potential illness? No I've been rubbish with food, exercise, hydration, sleep - the lot. In fact all the things that should boost immunity, increase wellbeing have been replaced by the short term fixes... Junk food, chocolate, caffeine, late nights, early mornings.

I have been niggled by a need to turn things around, but have postponed to tomorrow pretty much everyday with a new excuse each day, even today I could make bad choices 'because I'm sick'. 

After a couple of days off work I returned to the fray this morning, unprepared & a sneaky visit to the shop on the way to work meant my snack for the morning wasn't the most nutritious, guess what by lunchtime I was back at square one, only good for coming home and heading for bed!!

You might think this is a drastic point if view but from someone who believed in supreme health, you are what you eat, but has let it all slide I can see how the right choices could have meant no sickness - not guaranteed, but I'd rather look back from a sick bed knowing I did all I could to feed my body and prevent this than look back and regret my choices.

Oh well, a good nights sleep tonight and let's see what happens tomorrow!!

Monday 22nd June

BW- still the same as yesterday!

The Day: tiredness rules today! After hitting the weekend tired, not catching up on my sleep then an early morning wake up call from Winnie (I tried to sleep again afterwards, but struggled to drop off) I have started the week in the worst way!

The Iron: 

No training - tired!

The Fat Burner:

No training - tired!

The Nutrients:

1, fruit toast x 2, butter & coffee 

2, croissant with banana & peanut butter, coffee

3, tuna sandwich, crisps, flavoured water

4, lasagne, chips, garlic bread, beans, wine

Calories in: 2813

Protein in: 84g

The Red Stuff:

2 glasses of vino in a Monday night - totally breaks my rules!!

The Routine:

Erm.. Non existent!!

Sunday 21st June

BW= I didn't weigh in today!

The Day:

Up early for golf, it was a rush, we weren't prepared (due to yesterday). Had a good game - came in 2 over my goal for the summer, a but of shopping then home. We both feel tired, grouchy & crappy (all because of yesterday)!!

The Iron: 

No training today

The Fat Burner:

Round of golf (burns around 1000 calories)

The Nutrients:

1, fruit loaf x 4 slices, coffee

2, snickers, lucozade

3, pork pie

4, croissant with ham & cheese, coffee

5, bakewell tart protein powder & total yoghurt

6, 1/2 individual portion of passion fruit frozen yog

Calories in: 2038, goal 2030

Protein in: 94g, goal 165

The Red Stuff:

A couple of glasses to finish the weekend!

The Routine:

The day started in chaos, no food prepared yesterday, no waterproofs in my golf bag (it rained!!).

I managed to get some housework done & prepared food for tomorrow.

Bought some new golf pants - UK size 14, they are tight. If I don't take control I will be buying a size 16 by christmas!!

Things I wanted to do but didn't today:

Vac the house

Sort out my nails

Clean gym bathroom

Get in some weight training

Saturday 20th June

BW=167.4/ 32.4%

The Day:

On Saturdays I let the dogs wake me - no alarm. I am usually woken by the potter patter of claws on the bedroom floor or a cold wet nose sniffing my face. The dogs body clock means I tend to be woken around 5am so there still isn't a lie in for me. Got my training done, got some chores done, then we decided to drive to Scarborough and join family for lunch. It didn't go to plan... We didn't eat until 3:30pm, then didn't get home until 7:30pm... I was pretty miffed as I had a great tea planned!!

The Iron: 

Back & bicep

Basic 8's

 

1 Pulldowns (Front, Wide-Grip)

1 60 × 8

2 60 × 8

3 60 × 8

4 60 × 8

2.1 Reverse flye

① 10 × 8

② 10 × 8

③ 5 × 8

④ 5 × 8

2.2 Hammer curl

① 7.5 × 8

② 7.5 × 8

③ 7.5 × 8

④ 5 × 8

3.1 Pulldowns (Front, Close-Grip)

① 60 × 8

② 60 × 8

③ 60 × 8

④ 55 × 8

3.2 Preacher Curls (Dumbbell)

① 5 × 8

② 5 × 8

③ 5 × 8

④ 5 × 8

4.1 Row (Cable)

① 60 × 8

② 60 × 8

③ 60 × 8

④ 55 × 8

4.2 Arm Curls (Cable)

① 20 × 8

② 20 × 8

③ 20 × 8

④ 20 × 8

5.1 Rear Delt Row (Dumbbell)

① 5 × 8

② 5 × 8

③ 5 × 8

④ 5 × 8

5.2 Crossover curl

① 5 × 8

② 5 × 8

③ 5 × 8

④ 5 × 8

I feel weak again, but that's ok - with consistency I will get better. That is a fact - full stop!

The Fat Burner:

Did a bit of walking around at Scarborough 

The Nutrients:

1, protein latte

2, bacon & mushroom sandwich, coffee

3, road trip snacks: frappacino, strawberries & almonds

4, pork ribs, fries, coleslaw, onion rings. 1/2 a pint of peroni

(This food was crap, pointless, tasteless, rank... I'll have nightmares about this meal!!

5, cheesecake & wine!

Calories in: 2616, 586 over my target

Protein in: 126g (masses or carbs today!!!)

The Red Stuff:

It's Saturday : 500ml of Shiraz I reckon!

The Routine:

The day started so well, but went to pot!!

Friday 19th June

The Day:

I'm so tired this week! I wanted to sleep in but the puppy woke at 5am, so I headed downstairs to caffeinate! It was a steady Friday - nothing much to report!

The iron:

Nothing today - I am feeling ready to take it on again though!! I read a post on Facebook I really like! It was poo-pooed a bit when I shared it but I like the idea of setting goals by performance not by look which was my 'takeaway' from the post.

http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/4-strength-goals-for-a-beautiful-body.html?clickid=3bowc6UnDXUZSKP3b3xk5wsFUkX0o7VlIXhQz40&irpid=27795

The Fat Burner:

Nothing..

The Nutrients:

1, Coffee x 2 & cranberry wheat cereal

2, monster munch x 44g, chocolate cookie

3, supermarket sarny (crap), crisps & kitkat

4, musclefoods buffalo burgers, brioche rolls, salad, 200ml beer, 

6, chocolate trifle

Drinks: coffee x 3, tea x 1, beer 200ml, wine 

Calories: not tracked.

The Pink Stuff:

It's Friday!!

The Routine:

Err... Cleaned the kitchen before tea....

Thursday 18th June

No faffing, no new starts ... Just straight back into it!!

The Day

We were late to bed last night, I seriously couldn't open my eyes this morning!! It wasn't a great morning or a great day... It was ok.

I worked on my food plan, my training plan and my home routine - at least that is a step in the right direction!!

The Iron:

No training today

The Fat Burner:

No training today

The Nutrients:

1, Coffee & 4 x fruit loaf slices with butter

2, quark, fruit, muesli & coffee

3, tuna salad sandwich, cheese & onion crisps, fruit salad

4, coffee & snowball cake

5, steak, hmade oven chips, ratatouille, 150ml Matts beer

6, 1/2 a serving of salted caramel ice cream, red wine

Calories: I didn't count them

The Red Stuff:

1 x small glass of red

150ml beer

The Routine:

Err... What routine??

Food plan

I'm fed up of counting calories!

I think there is something to be said for a predominantly healthy diet with no restrictions. I don't mean go mad and eat pizza all day - I said predominately healthy, but I mean concentrating on the quality, the macros, and my bodies hunger response rather than the calorie count. MFP and IIFYM has helped me to introduce a lot more poor quality foods into my diet 'as long as it fits' and whilst I enjoy all foods (yep inc pizza) I know that I want to clean up my diet.

Yikes!! Did I say IIFYM and clean eating in the same blog post...

You see I have always believed in clean eating, by that I mean eating clean foods as much as possible. I don't mean the strict 'you can never eat a pop tart again' idea that some people interpret this as. What I mean by eat clean is 'foods that come from the ground of have a mother'!

IIFYM is a great tool and helps to achieve balance in most cases, but doesn't really work for me. I open myself up to choosing the wrong things health-wise on this approach.

I have also been reading the principles of paleo and have taken a couple of learnings away from that too...