Autumn 2014

I don't know what I want to write about really, but I feel the need to get some stuff off my chest. 

Firstly, for an update on my food and fitness just read any past posts. I am still not moving forwards in this area.

My Skye-baby was put to sleep on 16/11/14. She had kidney failure and her hind legs had massive muscle wastage. It hit me harder than I expected. 

In the same week I had an interview to get into working for my Hubby's parent company which is ultimately where I wanna be. I was offered 25% less than my current wage which I have taken personally and I am offended by the fact that they couldn't see the worth of my skills and experience.

So the death of a pet and the death of a big dream in the same week is taking some adjustment and I think I am probably still grieving for both. I am shattered and to be honest am only functioning on a 'must do' level at the moment, unable to be proactive, focused or even remember things.

Just getting through the day to a glass of wine and a cosy bed. Then getting up is the hardest, since being a small child I have tried to sleep my troubles away and I still want to do that... Give up, stay safe in bed they can't get you!!

I know I have to pull myself together, but each day that I don't is another failure so knocks me back again. I'm not sure how to push passed this or when I will bet through it right now...

Day 12 - Wednesday 1st October

Wow I have some catching up to do...

Life took over there for a while and then took my mojo too...

I had craziness at work, a meal at Jill and Howard's, including around 2 bottles of wines, hangover, back to normal then to be hit with a stomach bug!

Today should have been back to normal but I couldn't drag my sorry ass out if bed with my alarm, so I snoozed it and tried to get back to sleep for the next hour n half! I now feel like crap and know how much better I would have felt if I had hit the weights!!!

I want to sort this, what I am doing now is just wasting time, so back to the 8-ish hours sleep plan until I have this getting up habit tuned in!!

So rules are: 

1, Bed 8:30 to 9pm

2, either 45 mins cardio or 45 mins weights

3, six days a week!!

My back to basics plan:

Cals burned each week (not incl golf) = 2085, added to daily goal x10 = 12,935/7= 1847 per day

If I eat this each day & workout as planned in 5 weeks I'll be at: 152lbs!!!

So 1850/6= 300/meal (rounded out to make the numbers easier!!)

300 = 120c, 90p, 90f

Returned to old-style macros for a few weeks until meal planning is back in my head!

So today:

Do the best I can with no meal prep... 

Drink water!!

Pull a list of weights for common food items together and start note book

1st October, so pics & measurements before work (already had coffee, so no more food till I've done this)

Start a why list!!

Daily routine:

Up at 4:30, gym by 5am

Done by 5:45, hit the shower

Wake Matt at 6, ironing if needed

Make pack ups, brekkie

Dog walk at 6:45

Come back get ready for work

Tidy up and head off

Home at 6, start tea

Iron any of today's washing

Tidy up

Eat, tv, bed

Day 4 - Tuesday 23rd September

I feel burned out! 

Some late nights over weekend, then dodgy nights sleep, then a later than should be night last night... Well there was just no getting me out if bed when my alarm went off! 

I am trying to work out how to get 8 hrs sleep and still fit in my workout (at least for a week or so) I need to get the best of both worlds... 

9pm to bed (& sleep, no fb, no tv) means wake at 5am, 

5am - sort the edster out & chug pro shake

Try to hit the gym by 5:15, done by 6

Then back to usual routine. It will make my mornings a rush, but I feel it's what I need to do for a while, from there I can take steps to get up earlier and earlier and I can fight the bad habits that I have got right now!!

Yep that is at least a step on the ladder rather than this constant battle with myself when my alarm goes off at 4am!!

Day 3 of 84 - Monday 22nd September

Aaargh... What a terrible nights sleep!!

Went to bed early enough, but Ed kept waking me with his slopping! He woke me a lots of times so I felt like crap when I got up!

Work was strange, I found it really tough to focus and then had a customer meeting in the afternoon. 

Food had to be bought from supermarket on my way in and was high fat, high carb & highly processed!!

Stats are insane and not admittable!!!

Day 2 of 84 - Sunday 21st September

We woke, we chilled then it was a rush to get to the golf course in time!

Played to +34 which is ok.

Had a beer and came home for food and chilling!

No gym time squeezed in, no food prep even though I intended to all day! No prep for the week in anyway whatsoever!!!

Today's stats:

Target = 2014, p30, c40, f30

Kcals in - 1869, exercise cals 1309

P26, c51, f22

Kcals were ok but the macros were totally off!!

Exercise calories weekly = 3055 - 1309 =  1746 to go.

So exercise is ok, cals were ok, but I need to get my head around my macros properly. Also I wanna start making them work on a meal by meal basis not just a total per day!

My plan for the next 84 days!!

After years of reading & learning about food plans I have developed my own plan with a little help from my books, fav websites etc.. My aim is to eat as much as I can, without marking anything as off limits whilst still seeing progress!

This is my version of flexible dieting!

The numbers:

Calorie intake = goal weight x 10 + Average exercise calories - this is a pretty mainstream calculation for fat loss.

So for me right now that means 1550 and my exercise allowance is 245 for weights + 300 for cardio - 6 days a week!

Macro split will be 40p/30c/30f with high carb weekends (30p/40c/30f)

If I am over my calories that's ok, but I should always try to hit the macro % splits 

Feed my body!

1, clean, home prepared food as often as poss, takeaway & pizza in moderation (yes!!!)

2, carbs, protein, fat at each meal

3, food pit-stops should be every 3 hours to keep my body fuelled

4, green veg in abundance

5, at least 2l water daily

6, treats are just that.. They are treats, not daily food items, not comfort after a hard day ... But allowed if they fit my macros :-)

7, complex carb reduction can have its place (comp prep, imp event) but should not be a lifestyle choice!!

Day 1 of 84 - Saturday 20th September

I feel the need to blog, to record my days, my progress, to work on changes and analyse where I've gone wrong or right!!

I got up and worked out straight away, but we were meant to golf in the afternoon so I didn't need to do any cardio, but the day didn't go to plan, we ended up not golfing and I was going to do some cardio in the afternoon, but I ended up feeling like crap and going to bed.

I weighed in this morning (after a protein latte) at 163.4 & 31.6% which I am not happy about but I do deserve more after how slack and unfocused I have been for a longtime now.

Food:

1- protein latte

2- egg white, oats, banana, peanut butter, coffee

3- omelette made with egg white & 1 egg, 2 mini sausages, mushrooms & coffee

4, snickers & chocolate milk (I felt I'll, like my blood sugar had dropped)

5, steak, veggies, dauphinoise orators, onion rings, wine x 2 & more chocolate

So my intentions were good, you can tell from how my day started. I was tired and I think that affected me massivley during the afternoon.

 

So today's stats:

Target = 2,014, p30%, c40%, f30%

Kcal in 2943, exercise cals - 245

Pro 27%, carb 37%, fat 36%

So stats were ok, cals were too high!!

Exercise calories (weekly) 3300-245=3055 to go.

I didn't hit my exercise allowance for today, but it may pan out over the week.

Must do better tomorrow!

A fitness plan is for life not just christmas!!

So I am blogging again!

I am starting at the sameplace as usual, but this time I have a slight edge... I have goals ... Not just to be 20lbs lighter, but full on proper grown up goals, daily ones and most importantly ones that will help me live the life I want not tomorrow but right now!!

I've had a lovely weekend but it really is time to shove my nose well and truly to the grindstone and get through the week at work! There is a lot of pressure at the moment and I let myself down last week by falling into my stress head bubble, neglecting everything that wasn't work, apart from alcohol and sleep (which didn't help each other out!)   This week I plan a different tactic!

Fitchick

I am aiming for 4 workouts this week plus whatever games of golf we play, just so I can take space to deal with work. Workouts are just basic this week, am reading too many different plans and confusing myself...

Gonna follow iifym and stick to them there macros!

Drink water!! To aid concentration, focus and tiredness at work!

Flybaby

Following the flylady stylee I intend to keep right on top of the housework and not feel like I have to spend the weekend catching up!

£s are pretty

Getting a grip on my finances will help ease the load. No more out of budget spending, balance the books tomorrow and tighten the belt!

Beachbabe

Well no vacation this year, but I can get those holiday feelings at home right? Like now I am chilling with my cowffee and the sun is shining directly at me. It's gonna be a glorious day..  I wanna see some of it so that means a lunch outside today! Back to the point - I need to do something each day that I can say is a holiday moment !

Wonderful wifey

Do something everyday to show your family you care!!

Day 1

So it's day 1 of something today... Not totally sure what though?! Day 1 of a new program? Day 1 of a new diet? Day 1 of a new me?

'If you want to stop starting over then you have to stop giving up' somebody somewhere once said.

I don't intend to start over ever again so I guess it is day 1 to becoming the best me I can. I won't be perfect every day... who is? But I will try to be better than before everyday.

So I have weighed in and my starting point is:  162lbs 31.2% body fat. I want to see that drop by next week.

I am recovering from Saturday nights antics, so today won't be the most productive day, everything will be stripped to the bare bones so I can do as little as possible and head to bed early... Tomorrow will be better!

Monday 17th March

Ok, ok I'm up, I snoozed the alarm but started to tell myself the reasons why I needed to hit the gym and so I made it, felt groggy and like I could have slept a lot longer but 30 mins later and I feel alright. Between snoozing and Eddie faffing around I am running a little later than normal though...

Weighed in at 160.8/ 31%, not that I give a crap about the lbs but that is 49.848lbs of fat and I wanna see that go down!

Ok so back & biceps trained followed by 10 mins on the treadmill then to hit the shower!

Morning was a bit chaotic due to lack of prep on Sunday night but I made it through and arrived at work on time. I had a good day at work and felt calm and into control as I left!

The evening was a good one, i did my main chores and watched The voice before heading to bed. It was a little later than I planned when I went to sleep!

Food:

1, protein latte

2, egg white, oats, banana, peanut butter, coffee

3, cottage cheese, mango, oatcakes, coffee

4, chicken, brown rice, broccoli, aonds, pineapple

5, same as 4

6 cottage cheese, blueberries, oatcakes, almonds

7, cod, ratatouille, cheese, garlic baguette, Becks blue

8, milk, 2 cubes dark choc

Holiday moments:

Watching the sunrise, 1st from the gym, then from my kitchen whilst getting ready for work <3

Don't think about it.. Do it

It's time to stop thinking about it.. Time to start taking action ...

Weekend 15/16 March

Saturday:

Got up (early) I chose not to hit the gym as I planned to get my chores done so we could hit the shops early, the iron could wait until the afternoon....

The hunt for a wedding outfit went on for around 6 hours and was totally unfruitful, but seeing myself in those changing room mirrors had me giving up on myself again!

I got home, searched the web for my outfit and had my bath and a usual Saturday night started... (No workout)!

I tell myself that Saturday is a cheat meal evening so I allow myself to pig out in the rich and tasty food that has become a major part of our Saturday night, in reality at the moment every night is a cheat night!

Headed to bed after watching The Voice and fell straight to sleep!

Sunday:

Got up with the Edster, then headed straight back to bed I could tell my sleep had been less than it should have (maybe the fault of the wine) then woke again around 6am.

So frustrated with my lack of (I wanna say progress, but I can't expect progress when I don't do anything) so I am frustrated with my lack if action, my procrastination, my inability right now to feel a 'buy in' to my goal.

Chores, brekkie (we both wanted a Full English Brekkie - so I allowed myself as long as I made it as clean as I could), then back to the outfit hunt!

Today I kitted myself out yay! And I feel better about myself than yesterday... I felt quite hot in my outfit!! Still the niggle that I do not have the body I want, but this one will do for the time being!

So I am now shattered, housework hasn't really been done, food needs prepping and again there has been no workout... Oh yes and for some reason I feel I deserve lasagne, garlic bread and wine tonight (mostly because I am pissed at myself)

Don't judge me today I have done enough of that for myself this weekend - this journal is the start of my 'progress not perfection' journey. Babysteps to being better, no deadlines, no crash diets, moderation, understanding myself and enjoying the journey is what I am focussing on x

Saturday:

1) coffee, egg white, oats, banana, peanut butter & flaxseed

2) slice of Hawaiian pizza

3) Becks blue beer 

4) steak, dauphinoise potatoes, stuffed mushroom, roasted mediteranean veggies, onion rings, pepper sauce

5) passion fruit cheesecake & 2 glasses of wine

Sunday:

1) coffee

2) 2x bacon, potato cakes(made from leftover dauphinoise), homemade pork patties, egg, Wholemeal English muffin, baked beans, coffee

3) Costa coffee medium cinnamon latte, shared a mango cooler with hubby 

4) biscotti (that I forgot to have with my coffee) 2x Becks blue

5) lasagne & garlic bread, wine

So what did I do right?

1) all in all around 10 hours of walking (trust me my feet are feeling it!!)

2) started Saturday with a healthy brekkie

3) didn't resort to a cafe full English made my own which would have been far healthier

What do I need to improve?

1) gotta, gotta hit the gym in morning, if not it doesn't happen!!!

2) plan weekend food, stop going with the flow!

3) sort out that steak night or use it as a proper cheat!!!

What if....

What if I just did it? What if I was consistant with my workouts, with what I eat? What if I stuck to it for 12 weeks?

Where would I be ? Who could I be?